having a battle in my head
has never felt so burdensome.
not knowing who my foe is,
not knowing when this will end,
not having even a slightest tip
how to finish all this suffering.
losing so much on the way,
sacrificing those
who are supposed to stay.
letting those stay
who are supposed to leave.
i am left clueless,
only to find out that
i am not just having it
i am also the one
who is inventing it.
